Some people believe that all of us are put on this earth for a purpose. What is mine then?

I'm just a typical teenager, learning to cope with secondary school life, just like everybody else. There's school, projects, CCA and tuition, fiiling up the blank time in my life. But if you take those away, what's left? Nothing. That's what I am, nothing. A void, an insubstainable fragile shadow, without any opinions of my own. Someone with no aspirations and dreams of my own, someone who's life revolves around fulfilling my parent's wishes.

I'm at the crossroads of my life. There are so many open doors in front of me, just waiting... Waiting for me to chose one door. If I pick one, the rest of them will close and vanish forever. Which one to pick, which is the correct path? I can't make the decision. Is my fate inevitable once I make the choice? Is the future really set in stone, or is it possible to make a difference? I feel like I'm all alone in a dark cold tunnel, groping around, blindly in the shadows.
Perhaps... If I try my very best... I will be able to find a speck of warmth and light... Maybe... Just maybe... I'll be able to grasp onto a warm hand, the hand of a person going through the same turmoil as me. The warm, comforting hand of a friend... A friend who can help me, and who I can help in return... Then making the decision will not be as hard as before...


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This is my monolouge for my Drama Elective programme. We're doing devised pieces at the moment. My topic is "Identity". Please help me improve it! I need to pull up my grades after narrowly flunking in the previous term!